二、新诗《看叶子》及致梁思懿信
2016年西泠印社拍卖有限公司的秋季拍卖会上出现了一封林徽因致梁思懿、周念慈的信(详见后文)。林徽因在信中抄录了自己新写的两首诗即《独行》和《看叶子》。《独行》以《十月独行》为题发表在《大公报·文艺副刊》,后来收入《林徽因诗集》(人民文学出版社1985年版)、《林徽因文集·文学卷》(梁从诫编,百花文艺出版社1999年版)、《林徽因诗文集》(译林出版社2011年版)。经核查,仅第三节“我惶惑又抱歉”改为“我更自己抱歉”,其余皆同。而《看叶子》一诗从未发表,实为林徽因佚诗。先抄录全诗如下:
看叶子红红的叶子,又到了秋天我纵知道自己想念,我却画不出心里的方向——我疑心你已变了模样!(注)
黄黄的叶子像火烧焦;我听到隔墙有人摇落笑,我拾起这偶来的别人欣喜,惋惜底保存在自己眼泪里。
Nancy dear——Perhaps you will like this little thing. The yellow & red in your campus, & the jolly sighting some jolly girls & boys passing were inspiration for this. The first stanza you can leave to your imagination but if you must speculate, speculate kindly. The“你”there can be from A to Z or somewhere in the middlish. Read also my other poem sent to 五姨.⑥The fire chat night will remain a pleasant memory.
Auntie