It's ridiculous how we made gods to write our own play, is it not?

IT'S OKAY YOU GAVE UP YOUR DREAMS
IT'S OKAY BECAUSE IT WAS YOUR CHOICE
IT'S NEVER TO LATE TO PICK IT UP AGAIN
BUT FOR NOW, LITTLE TAURUS...
DON'T LOSE YOURSELF.
STEP BY STEP, YOU'D GET THERE
YOU'D GET THERE.
I PROMISE.

AND WHEN YOU GET THERE...
I THINK HE'D BE THERE TOO
HE'D BE THERE...
SOON YOU WILL SEE.
SO KEEP HOLDING ON.

keep holding on.
not to be condemned like the one beneath...

I fucking hate myself I never get anything done I never did and No matter how hard I tried how much resolve I gathered I never got to be the one.
I just feel tired and exhausted really.
I wanna give up.
Like for a very long time I am thinking doing that again.
I don't see a future in myself anymore.
What do I do?
IP? Yep I will keep that in mind.
But why do you have to do this to me?
I'm not good enough.
I know that much.
I thought I was special but I was wrong.
Apparently.
Not the privileged one.
Not the lucky one.
Would you make me one?
I don't know.
I might be better off dying.
But then again I already am, dying.
Lol

What should I do?
Wô gāi zên mē bàn?

I feel exhausted.
Like out of nowhere.
Perhaps things will get better if I just get bits of thing done everyday...

He'll be there when you get there. Stop complaining. Stop wining. He'll be there for you. As long as you get there.
So the sooner you get there the better.
Now keep moving.
Be strong.

you poor, pathetic creatures...