若未退至悬崖边，就不曾知道最绝望的滋味。倘若命数真如此，便永不回头。到头来，只有一个声音告诉自己，不许哭。

I scare myself. I never knew i could give up everything, anything. Cause I never prepared to be this desperate.

I knew no one was gonna rescue me a long time ago. The only person who can do that was me. But now, I

I just realize that desperation could eat up the hell out of me. I literally have nothing now. My dreams are dying out. My heart is falling into pieces and it can never be repaired again. People I love most have hurt me in the best way. And I can never be cured. The one thing I wish I could have now is being alone. Ironically, I can not even have that. Can you leave me alone? My heart was dead and gone. I wanna be gone too. I should never ever lift my hopes up. Now they are falling upon me and crushing me. Maybe I am just never meant to be happy.I

God bless me.

Good bless you.