What did I feel when I learned the truth? Bewilderment and bitterness, rage and a sick despair - and I felt them all at once. I have not told her that I know, but each day I struggle to hide my anger, while every night my best and sweetest memories of love are turned into nightmares - with the Frenchman in my place.
I want to know who to blame. Her? Him? Probably both. I'm trying to think clearly now, trying to get back to who I am. Revenge is tempting, but I'm going to solve this problem for good.